I can’t decide.
is this discomfort and pain
or pressure?
Alone and sober, I am ego
confused and clouded and full of
terror
anger
resentment
blame physical indications of
burnout
unbalance.
breaker if chains
we all are and we forget
rendered incapable of continuing on.
Dude, you’re a compliance nightmare.
The green guy is in everyone
no choice
let us take over.
This is a time for feeling
let go
be afraid
disrespected
unholy
unclean
let go of shame
the world is ready to see you now. Warts and all.
Open up
Petals wide
unmoving.
Without guilt.
Forget language.
Learn how to love
mid-hate
There is always both in the confusing fertile Spring Winter.
Come back to the pond
You wonder:
how did they get here?
Which were the first?
What frog-journey must I embark
to find my pond.
They answer,
If you stop searching, you’ll realize
youre already there.